LIFE SUCKS

See, this is what piss's me off. I get a really small annuity each month. About $1,080.
I manage, with some really frugal living, to live off it nicely. Nothing special, and sometimes I run out of food before the month is out, but all in all, I'm surviving nicely.

What piss's me off.....


is that each year I get a cost of living raise from my annuity. Usually $20 bucks a month.....


but a month later my health insurance goes up $10 a month....


so that leave me only a $10 a month raise.



Then my lot rent goes up $20 dollars a month.



I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET AHEAD!!!!!!



I'm not falling behind..... at least by not much....but I just can't seem to get ahead of it all!!!

I would love to have at least $200 a month left over, after paying rent, and bills.... and all the fucking gas I use driving Matt back and forth..... but it just ain't gonna happen!!!! LIFE SUCKS!!!!

How does your garden grow?

OK. This is what I have from last year.

2 Large planters with blueberry bush's (they produced tons last year, so this year should be tons more)

1 planter with Asparagus in it. (last year just some tiny ones, but this year should produce a handful, and next year a huge crop)

1 planter with a Scottish Broom (or witch's broom as it's commonly called)

1 planter with Garlic (garlic is planted in the fall, and will be good to pull up in august)

2 planters with rose Bush's in them.

1 empty planter that will have spinach

2 empty planter's that will have Swiss Chard, and the other a Lettuce mixture.

Then I have the cauldron, and that will be planted with flowers for the summer, I also maybe thought of turning it into a water feature, but I haven't decided yet.

In the back by the cauldron, I have rosemary, and lavender planted

I also transplanted a zebra grass back in the corner to give me some privacy from the neighbors behind me.

I also transplanted some bamboo on the other back corner, for the same reason

Plus I have the peony planted up against the house in the back

In front I have the bamboo, tiger Lilly's, zebra grass,and some tulip and daffodils
bulbs.

I have the lettuce, spinach and Swiss chard seeds.... all I need is the soil for those planter's and the cauldron, and I'm FINISHED! Maybe 20 large bags. YIKES!!!!

Plus I'll add a few hanging baskets to call the hummingbirds back that came last year.


Oh, I almost forgot, I will have 1..... JUST ONE tomato plant, and 1 planter with CATNIP in it. Hay why keep buying it, when I can grow it???

New Member of the Family

This is Minnie! She's a stone crab..... a REALLY BIG stone crab! GIGGLE



I couldn't resist her. Saw her at Lowe's in the garden center, and I thought, what a perfect idea for a garden statue!!!!!!!!!!



She's perfect, since I love to Crab all summer long. Not sure where she will go yet, for now she's sitting in the kitchen.... staring at me! GIGGLE



But I'll pick a perfect place for her outside when it gets warmer. Maybe in the new Cauldron, or down by the bottom where the rosemary and lavender is growing...... not sure yet.

UPDATE on New Years Resultion

Well, I decided to keep going with it, even though the month of January is gone.

I'm still almost totaly vegetarian!! I do occasonaly add a very minute amount of meat (such as a little bit of sliced pepperoni in my salad). just to keep my energy up. But almost 100% veggies, cheese, and that's about it.

How to I feel? FANTASTIC!!!!!! REALLY FANTASTIC!!! My energy is up thru the roof, I'm actuall exersizing, and feeling like I could walk for miles and miles.

As for weight, well, I've lost a bunch, but since I'm NOT weighing myself, I have no idea how much. But all my pants are hanging really loose, and my shirts also are loose. I spend half the time trying to keep my pants from falling down. I did buy a size med pants, and they FIT!!!!

But, weight aside, I feel the best I have in years!!!!

No, you really can't tell I've lost weight! Seems when you have like 100 lbs of extra weight, it's not really noticable at first. Expecially since I'm wearing the same clothing, and lots of it since it's COLD!

But, like I said, this wasn't a weight thing. I'm happy with how I look, this was to get rid of the food allergys, and to get my energy back!! AND BOY IS THAT ENERGY BACK!!! It better get warm soon so that I can walk all the extra off, since I'm getting sick of cleaning!!!!

cast iron cauldron

Arrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhh

I can stand it a little longer, I can stand it a little longer,

I can stand it a little longer,

I can stand it a little longer,

I can stand it a little longer,

I can stand it a little longer,

I can stand it a little longer!!!!!!!!!



Spring IS coming!!!!!

Spring IS coming!!!!!

Spring IS coming!!!!!

Spring IS coming!!!!!

Spring IS coming!!!!!

Spring IS coming!!!!!

SPRING IS COMING!!!!!


I went to the garden expo up in Edison, on friday, with Eileen and Barb, and it was pretty nice. Got to look at all the gardening stuff...... but they used a mulch cover for their gardens that SMELLED LIKE SHIT!!!


So the usual smell of flowers weren't there! You couldn't even smell the hyathins..... as you know they smell STRONG!!! But not as strong as that stinky mulch!!!!


But I still had a blast looking at all the cool new bulbs, and flowers, and gardening stuff. It was realy nice.


And when I dropped Barb off I picked up the Cast Iron Cauldron for the garden. Geeeeeeeeeze!!! It's sooooooo fucking heavy that it took us like a half hour to manage to roll it to my car (it was parked like 2 feet away from it!!!) and then even longer to figure out how to get it IN the car.


But, don't underestimate two determined women, and we finally got it in the van. I left it there when I got home, and when Matt and his 2 friends showed up..... I talked them into taking it out and putting it where I wanted it. YEAH!!!!!!


Right now it's just out there, nothings done yet, too fucking cold to work, but I'll take a picture of BEFORE AND AFTER, to show you what I'm planing to do with it. GIGGLE.


SHOULD LOOK FABULOUS!!!!!! And of course, every good witch needs a HUGE CAULDRON, for thoes hard to cast spells. GIGGLE

IGGIE IS BACK!!!!

The picture above is my birthday present from Barb. Now the pic doesn't show it, but he's about 2 to 2 1/2 feet long. Gavanized steel frame (good for out doors and indoors) And covered with about 200 million gold and green beads!!!

He has blue marble eyes, and is cute as a button. But there is a story behind her giving it to me..........

Years ago, when Charlie and I first moved to PA with the kids, we were having our house built, so for 6 months we had to live in an air stream (thoes are the silver ones shaped like a hostess tweekie) trailer. We were living up at some camp grounds in the middle of the woods in Pa, waiting for the house to be build.

That's me, my hubby, 3 kids, 2 cats, and a dog!!!!!! Needless to say, and it's a long, long story, but I'm sure that's when I first lost any sanity that I was holding on too. When christmas came, and we were still in the camper..... they actually removed all the knives from there and hid them, because they were sure everyone was going to die by my hand!!!!!! Needless to say, a VERY smart move on their part!!!


But I still need to expain the lizzard. Well, I had a HUGE iguana. His name was Iggie, and I was worried that living in a camper, even if I could find a place for his cage there, would be bad for him, so I gave him to my friend Barb, to watch for me till the house was ready.

I went over his complete diet. All the foods he eats, fresh fruit and meat, and for some reason Barb only heard..... blah, blah, blah, apples. So that's all the fed him!!!!!!


When I came back to check on him he had died, and because of the hot stone in his cage, he actuall was stiff as a board!!!!!!


So this Iggie, is pay back to me. 14 years later, but still...... HE'S SOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!! I LOVE HIM!!!! And at least I don't have to worry about Barb KILLING HIM!!!!!

The Blahs

I've got a major case of the blahs!

I don't know if it's the fact that winters not over yet, or that this week is valentine's day, or if it's that NEXT month is my birthday..... or it just could be the rain. But it SUCKS!

I have the uncontrollable urge to get into bed, and pull the covers over my head, and sleep until it's spring!!!!!

Everything I do seems to depress me more and more. GIGGLE But, don't worry kids, you know that depression just seems to amuse me, more then depress's me. Oh Goddess, depressed by depression...... that's just too much!!!!! GIGGLE

OK, lets talk it out. We know why winter depresses me, it would just about anyone, wouldn't it? Valentine's day, well, lets just say it SUCKS THE BIG ONE!!! And my birthday...... it's not the fucking age, I'm cool with that, it's that no one seems to notice or care what day it is. No cards, or gifts or anything. Well, not all the time.... Jamie does remember it a lot, but this year she's too broke, like I am, so I may get a call, but that's all I can expect.


Not that I want tons of gifts (ahhhhhh who's kidding, gifts would be great!!!) but I would just like someone to remember it, on the day that it is, not weeks early or weeks late, just on the 5th!


And Valentine's day, well, my hubby NEVER, EVER, EVER remembered it, or if he did, he didn't give a damn. So it's not like I miss his gifts, I had 20 years of nothing, why would I miss that...... but I wish I had something to remember!


Though I can admit, Ulesses did remember the day, and gave me a present. To bad he's not around this year! LOL But that's my fault? I tell the men I DON'T want to get married, I DON'T want them moving in, but they just don't hear me, then I have to kick them to the curb. It sucks, but I just wish someone would HEAR ME!!!!!

Well, all this adds up to depression, and it sucks!!!!! Winter better be over soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Zodiac

AQUARIUS - UNFORGETTABLE SEX
(1/20-2/18)
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Attractive. Loud. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.


PISCES - THE GOOD SEX ADDICT
(2/19-3/20)
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Sometimes predicts the future. BEST kisser. Usually get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Find. GOOD when found. Romantic Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Can be quite romantic. Caring. NOT one to mess with!!!


ARIES - AWESOME IN BED
(3/21-4/19)
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners the best in bed... a fighter, will knock you the fuckk out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Hard to forget no matter how hard you try. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.


TAURUS - PLAYFUL,KINKY,NAUGHTY... NEED I SAY MORE?
(4/20-5/20)
Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Loud. Freak. Playful, kinky, and very naughty in the bedroom. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Honest. Talkative. Outgoing. Someone you should hold on to. The sexiest person you will ever meet in your whole life.


GEMINI - WILD IN BED
(5/21-6/21)
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. dual personalities. Loves relationships,
Addictive. Loud.

CANCER - MORE SEX TO GIVE
(6/22-7/22)
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

LEO - FREAK IN THE SHEETS
(7/23-8/22)
Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with...they will kick your ass... u might end up crying...

VIRGO - ALL NIGHT LONG
(8/23-9/22)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet!


LIBRA - GREATEST SEX EVER
(9/23-10/22)
Very caring and kind. Very smart. Romantic. Determined. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Very thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

SCORPIO - SEX 24/7
(10/23-11/21)
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. One of the best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth!

SAGITTARIUS - ONE OF A KIND SEX
(11/22-12/21)
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it.Cool. Loves to own Geminis' in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.


CAPRICORN - MY SEX WILL DRIVE YOU CRAZY
(12/22-1/19)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart.Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to.Hard to piss off but when mad beware!Only fights when needed but doesnt loose. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please.Loves to smile.Beautiful laugh.Patient.Cautious.Bit of naughty.The one and only. .

Racing Around

Yesterday I dashed madly around while Matt was at school.


I dropped him off at the school at 8am.


and ran to motor vehicles (just down the road), and got my licence renewed. (I was the only, and first person there!)



Then I ran to ocean chevy so they could check my car and see if the computer reset after the repair..... and it did. (This was the longest wait!)


Next to the drug store and drop of my prescription.


Then to the inspection station to get my van re-inspected.... IT PASSED!



And, AT LAST, home.... and it just turned 10am!!!!!!!! WOW!!! I was pooped!!! GIGGLE


But now, everything is done, and I don't have to worry about it for a couple of years.



But let me tell you, the whole time I was running around I was thinking......

I WOULD RATHER BE CRABBING!!!! I can't wait to go for my first time in the spring!!!!!!

Shore Leave

Well I fianaly got my cart from Shore Leave out of the shed and into the house. I feel realy bad, because last year, when I got home from shore leave, I just rolled the cart into the shed, and left it!


I didn't check my stock, or put the glass stuff in the house, or anything! Even the massage oils, were left where they were..... in the cold, unheated shed.


But, so far so good, everything is in good shape, the massage oils didn't burst or freeze, and I do have some bunny's left for this year.



Man!!!! I sold a whole lot of bunny's last year!!!!!!!



I only have about 20 left, and I did go out last week, and picked up 5 more bunny's at the store, they have to be dressed yet, but that should be plenty.


Besides the mortar and pestals, the copper cauldrons, witchy magnets, and other sundry items, I'll be selling mostly pierced jewerly.


Like barbells, and bellybutton rings ect. I noticed at the last shore leave, almost EVERYONE had one or more piercings there, but no one sold anything, but regular earrings...... so hopefully my stuff will sell like gangbusters!!!


The reason I'm thinking about all this, and it's not till July, is that I recieved the application for a table there, and sent it out with a check just today...... so I have to think about all this shit!


And I have to order all the peircing jewelry soon. Got a fantastic price!!!!! I can sell them almost at cost, and way below anywhere else sells them!!!!!!

I did reserve a room, and so did Eileen. And I'm going to share a room with her, but I refuse to let my rooms go till much later...... just in case, but then there is always tons of people looking for spare rooms closer to shore leave

Expecially since this is # 30!!!! And should be a BIG one!!!!!