Dance time

Feather fan dance....FAILED! Ohhhhhh ..... FEATHERS



And now, time for my amazing dance of a million bubbles!!!!!

Some people.......

Like my daughter.... have been out of the broom closet a loooooong time! GIGGLE

Garden deciding

Two things I have decided on are: Bunching onions. These are small tiny onions that you use the green and white part in cooking. They never form large bulbs, just tiny and sweet ones






The second is: Figs I'm going to get at least 2 fig plants. They winter indoors, but it's worth it for the sweet flavor.





That will fill up some pots.... the rest, besides beans and spinach and TWO types of tomatoes, hasn't been decided yet, but they will be soon.

Frozen

OK, so while I admit I know that this weather is good for the plants..... fruit tree's don't set fruit unless they have a certain number of days below freezing.....and the ground freezing also kills of plant bacteria in the ground...... I'm still FUCKING COLD!!!!


I sat inside for 4 days, out of coffee, out of sugar, and running real low in milk..... because I didn't want to face the weather.


But that's got to change. Matt starts back up in collage on Thursday... his last semester in four year!!!


So I'm going to have to buck up, face the music and drive him back and forth..... not mentioning... PLEASE DON'T MENTION.... sitting in the car two days a week FREEZING waiting for him.


Thank the goddess it's only 2 days during the week.... I'll run to Lowe's or home depot for the hour, and keep my tushy warm. The other two days, he's there for a few hours, so I can run home and come back again..... but either way, I have to face the cold!!!

BUT I DON'T WANNA (Pouting and stamping my feet!!!) SIGH But I gotta. RATS!

Well, as of today, only 8 WEEKS TILL SPRING!!!!!!

SNOW

Even though Merlin is unimpressed by the snow.... I'm HAPPY!!!




My plants are warm and toasty in their containers..... but we've finally gotten some snow!!!!!!!!





It's coming down light, but coming down!!!! Yippee.... I have no where to go, and no place to be but home.... so let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!!!

Changes

I want to make some changes this year with the garden.


I've given the asparagus 3 years, and while I get one or two, it's not enough... so they are coming out. So I have a nice big empty planter to use.
I'm not sure yet what will go in that planter, but the gardening catalogs are making me think! LOL Maybe instead of veggies, I'll plant a shrub or flowers.... I'm not sure yet.

The two long planters, that held spinach, are going to be for beans and cucumbers. I'll put in to wood stakes in the ground, wrap string around them, and put the planters at the base..... so that the beans and such can grow up. Now I've never had luck with cucumbers.... oh they grow, but wind up round like lemons, instead of long.... why? I have no clue! Since beans and cuks have to be at the back so they can reach the string and grow, up front I'll plant my spinach again..... or maybe get new planters for that. I can't live without fresh spinach!!!!!

Instead of a large round tomato, I'm going to plant one "Cherry" tomato. Lots of little ones will be a change, but I'm going to try it. Maybe I'll get less cracking and bruising like on the bigger tomatoes.

And this year I'm forgoing the herbs. I, of course, will still have my rosemary and lavender, (they now are bushes instead of plants!) but the rest of the herbs I won't plant. So that frees up another large planter.

What to put in them...... hummmmmmm, give me a while and I'll figure that out. GIGGLE

I'm going to be looking in the catalogs, and then running to the stores when the seeds come out, I'll think of something interesting! Like the artichokes, I've found that I can grow things not for this zone, with no trouble, so I may as well experiment some more.... right?

Last minute change, do to popular demands of a friend.... One large tomato type plant. giggle She does not like cherry tomatoes... and a Happy Steph, is impotant! giggle

As you can see.............

THE DOLL HAS A WHOLE HISTORY, AND STORY, THAT'S WHY I LIKE HER SO MUCH..... THIS IS HER STORY!

My therapist told me I suffer from chronic ennui – but I guess I'm just too tired to figure it all out. I'm supposed to write down my thoughts and feelings – you know, to help me get over my ‘condition'. So, here goes – my attempt at helping myself (sigh...). I just hope it's not too, well, boring.
Love, Ellowyne



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January 2, 2009
The People in My Life
Happy New Year...well, at least I think. I thought I'd start the year off right, and decided to visit Dr. Bantam. I mean, it's been months since my last visit, and I just felt it was time, plus I really feel bad when I ignore her for too long. I mean, she just wants to help me. And guess what? I think it actually made me feel a little better.

On my last visit in October, Dr. Bantam had given me an assignment. She wanted me to write down my thoughts on the most important people in my life...you know, like my mother and father and people like that. "Just something brief, dear," is what she said. But as you can tell, I've been putting it off.

At first I thought it was a pointless exercise, but once I started writing, it was actually interesting and really made me think about those that I love. So diary, here they are – quick thoughts on some of the most influential people in my life...at least so far:

Ellowyne Wilde (me!) – Okay...so Dr. Bantam is always telling me: "You know Ellowyne, everything always seems to be about you." Well, I've never really thought about it, but she's probably right. I think I'm rather bright, as I achieved excellent grades in high school even though I truly made little attempt to apply myself in any areas of study. I guess the biggest problem I have is I'm always kind of distracted. Dr. Bantam feels it's because I don't see that I have a purpose in life, but I haven't quite figured out if she's right. And in spite of the fact that I have no idea what I want to do with my life, I'm planning to attend Stanford University, with my friend Prudence.

Freddy Wilde – Freddy is my younger brother whom I totally adore. He's got blonde hair, and has always been full of energy; sometimes I think he was just too much for Mother to handle, especially once she got sick. I heard some whispers about him being "not quite right," but I don't believe it – to me he's perfect. He does like setting shoes on fire, but that's just a quirk – really.

Charles Wilde – My Father, whom I love dearly – he's always telling me that I'm the apple of his eye. He is a well-known, extremely talented architect and works for Arthur Stanhope, but I really don't want to think about Arthur. "Only the positive things," said Dr. Bantam. He and my mother met at Briermier Academy – the same school Prudence and I attended. I think it was so romantic.

Beatrice Wilde – My Mother. She was so pretty when she was young, and I always looked up to her when I was little, but as time went on, she became rather distant. I think she became depressed...but I just feel there's something tragic she never told me about. She became more and more depressed and withdrawn, and sometimes stayed in bed for days. If they had only caught it sooner, maybe she'd still be with us... Dr. Bantam thinks that I may be suppressing emotions about my Mother, you know, because she wasn't really able to provide Freddy and me with the guidance, support, nurturing, or affection that we might have liked, but honestly, it wasn't her fault. She did her best...

Emily Wilde – She's my grandmother, my Father's mother, and she's always been larger than life. Grandmother was there for me and Freddy when Mother became ill and really couldn't care for us properly. She was always so adventurous and full of wonderful stories. She met my Grandfather in Paris...can you believe it? Now that I'm grown, Grandmother has left her San Francisco home to me and she's moved to Paris. I love living amongst her beautiful antiques, but I do miss her terribly. Maybe I'll visit her in Paris one day...well, if I ever find the energy.

Prudence Moody – She's my one and only close friend, and she was born on the same day as me. Prudence thinks it was destiny that we became friends, but I'm not so sure. She was in the same class as me from our first day of school until the day we graduated from high school. And we're both going to attend Stanford University together. It's kind of comforting having one person I can rely on. Oh, and Prudence has uncanny insights and special abilities; she just seems to know things – really. Plus she's the only person who can bring an occasional smile to my face. I guess I don't know what I would do without her.

Arthur Stanhope – He's been around our family forever; he was my Grandfather Jack's best friend and business partner – co-owner of the architectural firm Wilde Design Group. And my Father works for him, too. And the worst part, he's Amber's father...which is not a big plus in my book. He makes me feel uncomfortable, but I'm not sure why. After my Grandfather Jack's death he remained close to our family. Why is still a mystery to me...I don't really think Father likes him all that much. And recently, something strange happened when Prudence and I were playing with the Ouiji board, and Arthur's name came up - but that's for another time.

Rufus Rutter – Prudence and I met him at school. He seems kind of sad, but really I think he's just shy. And guess what? He received a full scholarship from Stanford University, so he'll be going to school with us there, too. Dr. Bantam thinks Rufus carries a secret love for me, but really...he barely even speaks to me most of the time. We're just friends.

Sybil – My cat, Sybil, is sweet and gentle with most people - except for me. I don't know why, but with me she's rather selfish, stubborn, whiny, and hateful, yet I feel compelled to take care of her and provide for her as best I can. I mean, considering she's the only pet I've had that hasn't run away must say something positive about her...

Elaine Bantam, PhD – My thereapist. I've known Dr. Bantam forever, and even though I probably don't appreciate her like I should, she is an important part of my life. She's my therapist and has been for the past seven years, and I can tell she is really committed to helping me overcome what she calls my ennui. And I still haven't figured out what she keeps pouring in her tea during our sessions...

Okay, that's all I have the energy for right now. There are other people in my life, but if Dr. Bantam gives me the same assignment later, I'll try to include them, too...well, but only if I feel like it.

Love, Ellowyne

I DID IT!!!!

I DID IT!!!!


I got the doll I wanted!!!! As I said before, I couldn't afford the ones Steph gets, so I found something cheaper.....but just as pretty!!!!

INTORDUCING... fresh out of the box..... meeting merlin for the first time.... say HELLO to Morticia Wilde

Gardening

I got my FIRST GARDENING CATALOG TODAY!!!!!! Ahhhhhh, I love looking thru them in the cold winter. Makes me all warm and fuzzy! GIGGLE

I read a few blogs besides my own, and one of them is from a gardening expert... she even does what's called a "garden walk" every year, and she posts all about her flowers.

I just can't see it. While I love flowers and have quite a few of my own, they are just ornamental. And pretty of course. But the main idea for a garden is the vegetables.... and she has NONE!

How can you garden, and not grow your own food?

I know most of my stuff is container planting, but it's all organic, and home grown. Beans, spinach, artichokes, tomatoes, asparagus, and even blueberry's and gooseberry's.

I guess I figure just growing flowers to be a total waste of the earth. While flowers are pretty, and they feed the soul.... veggies feed the person!

I always have a few containers of flowers, lots of marigolds and mums to keep the buggies away from my veggies..... plus I have honeysuckle, wonderful witch's broom, and this year I'll even plant some Lilac's...... but without the vegetables, it seems a total waste!

Seems to me, that even growing the flowers to her, isn't a joy, it's a competition with others around her. She works so hard for that one weekend where she can show it all off.... that I don't think she gets to enjoy it most of the time.


Well, this summer I'm gonna bite into a nice sun warmed cherry tomato, and slurp down some fresh organic spinach salad, while smelling my pretty flowers, and seasoning everything with my fresh herbs.... and she is going to smell her flowers....and nothing more.

More's the pity

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