Sunday, July 29, 2007

How does your garden grow?

This morning I went blueberry picking!!!! And the best thing was that I didn't have to leave my yard!!!

Last year I planted in oak planters, two blueberry bushes. And let me tell you they are doing great! Besides some acid fertilizer in the fall, there's really not much to do to them. Quick, easy, and tastily!

I want to get some current plants next year, they make great jelly, and are yummy dried, plus making black current wine is the best. So I think I'll use 2 planters for them.


I wanted to plant some gooseberry's, but they aren't allowed in NJ, or at least not shipped to NJ, so I have to find a local garden shop for them.


On the other side of the house, by the shed, I planted 3 native beach plums. And they are doing great, even without watering or any attention at all from me. They should have plums in another year. Slow to fruit, but when they do...... WATCH OUT!!! Small, juicy, sweet plums on bush's!!! And tons of them too.


I don't feel like doing artichokes next year, to much work and early prep for just a few, so I'll have to think of something else in there.


Tomatoes..... NOT...... not planting one!!!!! It's going to be a tomatoless summer next year! GIGGLE Though those nice Asian eggplants are coming back every year. LOVE THEM!


Well, I have to January, when the Gurneys catalog will arrive, to figure out what's going in the big planters. I'm leaning towards fruiting bushes and dwarf trees, instead of veggies.


Also, by then I should have the HUGE cast iron Cauldron planter, that Barb is giving me. I'm going to do Iris, and other plants that drape over the sides in it. Maybe some mint, that will grow down. Or something with flowers!

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Pork Roast

Thought I would share my recipe for Pork roast with everyone. I just got one ready and slipped it into the oven for dinner


First you need a FRESH PORK ROAST



OK, for those of you who don't know, it means it's raw pink meat, not that ham that is red and already cooked.


You can ask for a picnic ham, fresh ham, or pork roast! It should have a bone at the end. And lots of tough thick skin on one side of it.


Don't get those stinking roasts that are in a webbing, and already rolled, do NOT use one of those!!!! I know your thinking....... thick tough skin????, but you will be forever grateful to me for telling you NOT to remove that skin.


First thing you do is with a very, very sharp knife or serrated knife, cut that tough thick skin in a diamond pattern.... cross hatch. so that you have small squares of skin or small diamonds of the skin. Cut thru the skin into the pork, but not too deep. It's hard, but worth it in the end.


Then rub the WHOLE roast with GARLIC SALT (not powder, SALT) Taking special care to rub the garlic salt into the squares of fat. And don't be timid, use a lot, most of it will be removed during cooking. Then sprinkle the whole thing with ROSEMARY. Yes, Dried ROSEMARY. LOTS of it!!!

Put the roast into a large baking pan, and around it add carrots, potatoes, celery, cloves of garlic.

That's why I use a large pan, I LOVE the veggies. Then give the veggies an extra sprinkle of garlic salt, and rosemary.


Now comes the interesting part. Add WATER. to about 1 to 3 inches in the bottom of the pan. Most of it goes away during cooking, and will steam the veggies to perfection!!!!

Cover very tightly. If your roasting pan doesn't have a lid, cover the whole thing in alunimun foil, sealing it tightly.


Roast at 400 degrees for about 3 hours. Depending on how big the roast is, but 3 hours is the normal, you can always over cook the roast...... that just makes it better. So at least 3 hours, or go for 4 if you must.


Take the cover off for the last hour!!!!!! This is to crisp up the fatty skin, and veggies. So for the last hour, cook uncovered!!!!


Then enjoy. And grab some of the crunchy skin and eat it!!!!! It's a really special treat, and my whole family fights over those crunchy morsels!!!!!!!

Now serve the roast with a green salad, and lots, and lots of cold applesause.

MUGGIE!!!

Yuck! The air was so filled with water this morning, that I couldn't breath!!!! Muggy, muggy, muggy!! Did something I don't usually do, turned on the central air very, very Earlie!!!!

I just couldn't take it anymore. But, I have to admit, so far this summer it's been pretty good. Most of the time, no air conditioning...... except for a few days here and there. Or if I turn it on, it's in the late afternoon. Hopefully this will last the rest of the summer.


Not that I mind the bills for it, yes, they are high during 2 months in the summer if, you run it constantly, but It's worth it to breath..... and it doesn't cost as much as you think it would.



My house is so heavily insulated, that I don't even have to turn the heat above 68.... even when it's like -20 outside!


But I like to have my windows open!!!!


Even in dead of winter, I keep at least my small kitchen window open a crack, and I ALWAYS have my bedroom window open at night........... even if it's sub zero outside!!!! Can't stand to be boxed in my house, with no fresh air!!!!


My mother NEVER opened the windows! She said the house kept cooler in the summer that way, and warmer in the winter............. BUT IT MAKES YOUR HOUSE SMELL!!!!!! That old lady smell in your parents house, is from leaving all the windows closed all the time!!!!

Something that leaves your house smelling like that, just isn't healthy!!!!!


Not me. If a window isn't opened somewhere, it's because I'm not home!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

sunburned


I'm sunburned, but soooooo happy. Went crabbing yesterday, and the beach today!!!!


I LOVE LIVING AT THE SHORE!!!!!


The beach was crowded, but Wednesday is free, so I ran up.

Parking during the week is only like $7 bucks for the whole day. (compared to $20 on the weekends) The tide was out, far out, and the water was WARM!! You could walk out like forever, and still not be above your waist. I like it like that.

I could sit in the water, and let the waves roll over me. Yummmy

Nice day or should I say days!!!!!


Summer rocks, but I'm still looking forward to fall.

Monday, July 23, 2007

LIFE'S LESSON'S

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a
well. The animal cried piteously for hours as
the farmer tried to figure out what to do.
Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the
well needed to be covered up anyway;


it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.
He invited all his neighbors to come over and
help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began
to shovel dirt into the well.

At first, the
donkey realized what was happening and cried
horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he
quieted down.


A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally
looked down the well. He was astonished at what
he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his
back, the donkey was doing something amazing.
He would shake it off and take a step up.


As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel
dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it
off and take a step up.


Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey
stepped up over the edge of the well and
happily trot ted off!



Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds
of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well
is to shake it off and take a step up.


Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out
of the deepest wells just by not stopping,
never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.



Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.

Live simply and appreciate what you have.

Give more.

Expect less




NOW ............
Enough of that crap . . The donkey later came back,
and bit the farmer who had tried to bury him.
The gash from the bite got infected and
the farmer eventually died in agony from septic shock.



MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:
When you do something wrong, and try to cover
your ass, it always comes back to bite you.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Feeling like Dr. Who

I saw an outside doormat, at the convention, with a picture of the Tartis on it, and a quote from Dr. Who, that says "it's bigger on the inside!"



I should have bought it!!!! Damn!!!


Some times I feel like I live in the Tartis!!!!! (that's the name of Dr. Who's blue police box that he travels in)


My house is set sideways on the lot. So my BACK door is actually my front door, and my Front door is my side door. If you enter from the driveway, your entering the kitchen, instead of the dinning room, So the house is deceptive from outside.


For the 40th time, one of Matt's friends come over for the first time, and they all say the same thing when they first enter......"holy shit, it's bigger on the inside!!!!!"


Kinda cute I think. My house does seem small from the outside, but inside it's 3 bedrooms, 2 full baths, kitchen, dinning room and living room, all nice sizes!

So, I live in the Tartis, who would have thunk it! GIGGLE

HELP TOMATO'S ARE ATTACKING!!!!!!!


Geeeeze!!!! I only got one plant this year, because in the past I've been bombarded by tomatoes. And it's a SMALL plant, not tall, just sort of short and chubby........ and it's still giving me 20 million freaking tomatoes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I did get these tomatoes for a reason, small and oval they have the highest amount of vitamin C..... higher then 10 oranges for one tomato!!!!!!



Should have know better. I have some kind of weird talent with tomatoes.



They just seem to love me, and I treat them bad you know, (it's funny that tomatoes and men are the same, the worse you treat them, the more they want to please you!) I don't talk to them, and forget to feed and water them.....but they just keep producing like mad!!!!!!




So I'm back to adding tomatoes to EVERYTHING!!!!



The blueberry's are producing tons! If I would give them a chance to grow and then pick them all at once............ but NOOOOOOOOO, I go out every morning and pick all the ripe ones, and scarf them down in seconds. YUMMMMMMY



So far, we've eaten one Artichoke, and 2 eggplants, and finished all the snap pea's.



The horseradish will be dug up in the fall, and stored for future use. can't grate too much at a time, it doesn't last long.



All in all, good gardening year!!!!!!

Monday, July 16, 2007

The last of it! Giggle

Pretty view from my patio. Sunset over the mountains of MD

Dealers room late at night..... ghostly shrouded! Giggle. Our table was in the main dealers room, not the hallway or the dark garden room


This is how I transported everything!!!! Thank the Goddess for the Englishtown cart that I've had for years. Everything fit in good, and was easy to transport!

Shore leave 4


I also got something I've been wanting for ages.
As you can see, a baby hooty!
He's so cute and round, and the candle in his back makes his eyes glow bright yellow!!!
I haven't named him yet, but I'm considering "Georgie".......... but then maybe not. Any Ideas?????

shore leave 3



This is Merlin welcoming a new member of the family, Pollywacket!

Polly, as you can see is a wizard cat, he checks the crystal ball as he works over his bubbling cauldron.

A candle goes in the back of him...... making his eyes, that are yellow glass, glow wonderfully!!!! The candle holder is red glass, so the eyes are a mix of yellow and red! Very pretty!!!!

But Polly is a two use kitty, the cauldron he's stirring has a medal base, so you can burn incense!!!!! Soooooo cooooooool!

Now I had another cat like that once, one with wings, but I gave it to a friend. I only hope she's still taking care of it. It would crush me to think she ruined it like lots of other stuff I gave to her.

shore leave again

Here's a picture of our table. Both Eileen and I shared one, and it was cool, but I could have used one all to myself.


As you can see, my "secret" project was BUNNIE'S!!!


But, not just any bunnies, but BUNNIE'S WITH ATTITUDE!!!!!


I had VAMPIRE bunnies, PIERCED bunnies, PIRATE bunnies, and a lot more. They were a big hit!!!!!!

I also sold out of my candle snuffers, and boxes, and massage oil. Nice, nice, nice!!!!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

In steps..... shore leave

I'm going to write this in steps, since it's late, I'm exhausted from the ride. But I have to tell you, being a dealer at shore leave rocks!



But first, this evening, before I drop in my bed, I gotta tell you a funny thing.


I LOVE getting a pool side room!!!!!! Nice patio, and smoking isn't a problem, but I don't usually get lucky enough to get one. BOY AM I GLAD I DIDN'T!!!!



Seems, because of some assholes who don't have enough sense to put the security bar down on their door, and then cry because they have been robbed............. they have permanently SEALED THE DOOR SHUT!!!!



Yepper, you can have a pool side room now, but not a patio. Making it really hard for those in the room, since now you have to go like a mile down halls and across patios, to get to a smoking section!!!!!!



They actually sealed all the patio doors, so when I got my room in the back with a patio that overlooks a steep hill, and then the parking lot, I didn't even bother trying the door..... but later I did....... AND IT WASN'T SEALED! Seems they missed mine, even thought all the others connecting mine were sealed.


So I spend some nice time sitting on the patio smoking. GIGGLE


But next year, I'm NOT going to ask for poolside! Since I know from the complaints and yelling that those are sealed shut. GIGGLE


Funny, how a few stupid, greedy people can fuck it up for so many others, and themselves too!!!!!!


Ahhhhh well, tomorrow I'll write more about shore leave. nite nite

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Shore Leave

Well, I leave tomorrow, Thursday morning, for shore leave.


We have to be there a day early because the dealers room opens at 2pm on Friday, and we usually don't get there till after that time if we go on Friday.


So we're going Thursday so we can relax, sit by the pool, and have a nice dinner before the selling begins.


Hopefully we will sell bunches, and if we do, we will do this again next year. But, we'll see............... I'll post pictures when we get back!!!!

Sunday, July 08, 2007

STARTED MY CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!!!

I know, I know, you hate my guts....... but I'm already late in starting my shopping.

I found starting in the summer, SPREADS OUT, the amount of money you spend....... so you can buy more stuff. And afford the stuff you buy!


I heard from my sister that Rag Shop's were closing all over, for good, and I ran, and I mean ran down to the store to hit up on the big 50% off sale!!!!!!


So far I've gotten both girls huge doodle bears, but they use glow in the dark ink, and the bears themselves have a light inside to glow. Cute


Got 2 gifts for Barb, 2 for Jamie, and a few for people I haven't decided on yet.


Besides that I got 3 huge wreaths! My old ones have bit the dust. One is for spring, pretty, one is for Christmas, and the other is just like a boxwood hedge type greenery, without decorations so that I can do a fall one.......... they were all out of the decorated fall ones..... so I decided to do my own.


And Christmas lights for outside, they are in a set of 10, (I got 2 sets) and they are candy canes, about a foot long. I think it'll look fantastic hanging from my arbor at Christmas.


Plus some nice bronze glittery poinsettia's for using in decorations........... and a bunch of other stuff. COOL!

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Garden, and updates


I wanted to show you how nice the split pot around my light fixture filled in.
All the plants in it are perennial, so they will come back year after year. You can't see it too well in the picture, but there are tiny blue iris's also in there, they are small, but give a splash of color.
Also the mall two lights down is now open!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We have a movie theater, with stadium seating, and a Ruby Tuesdays, Grand Chinese Buffet, and Saladworks!!!!
The Walgreen's is almost ready to open also, it's got windows, and doors, and now they are working inside!!!! YEAH!!!! Love Walgreen's!!!!
We already went to the movies to see the new Die Hard movie, and it was comfy, and clean, and the popcorn wasn't half bad. GIGGLE
So easy and convenient..... but took FUCKING FOREVER to build!!!!!
Also, right before that, they are building a Super Walmart. Haven't broken ground yet, but soon hopefully!

Friday, July 06, 2007

OHHHHHHHH

GIGGLE got some more stuff to sell at shore leave.


Just little things, like these cute little cauldron candle holders with cut out stars on them, and the inside painted bright yellow,

and wrought Iron candle snuffers, the snuff part is a witches hat, they are long, black, with vines and a bat, then the cute witches hat!

Sooooooo, cute. I know I have tons of stuff already, but some is for under the table, so that as I sell I can refill the table.

So now I have:

1. the secret fuzzy things (still not telling.... nah nah nah)

2. Copper Cauldrons

3. some huge ruby red, and purple crystal clusters

4. mortar's and pestles (wood)

5. the magnets

6. Conch shell snudgers

7. assorted tiny wood boxes

8. other assorted candle holders, in gem tones, and some of gold with star cut outs

I think that's plenty, hopefully I'll sell most of them and not have to cart it all back home. GIGGLE

Thinking of Gremlins

I think I have Gremlins, no, not Trolls...... thoes I know I have. Trolls make things dissapear, and then re-appear later on, somewhere else. GIGGLE

Gremlings are pigs! They mess up your house while your sleeping.

I woke up this morning and started cleaning. Made the bed first off (can't stand an unmade messey bed. Can't stomick thoes who leave it unmade all day, then crawl back into the messey bed at night!!! YUCKY!!!!!!)

Then I hit the kitchen for coffee..... and found dish's in the sink.......... not mine, but dirty, and not in the dishwasher, but the sink. And I found crumbs and smears of something on my nice kitchen counter top.

Then I spied a towel or two on the floor, something chunkey, like mud, on my clean floor. Also something that should have been in the garbage (some kind of scrap paper) on the floor next to the garbage.

And the folding doors to my laundry room were ajar. Open just a bit! And paper, or bits of rice on the living room floor!

Now, when I go to bed at night, my house is SPOTLESS! So it must be Gremlins doing all the dirty making work at night...... RIGHT????

After all it couldn't be my SON!!!! He would never do that!!!!! WOULD HE??????????????
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

4 th

What a dreary 4 th of July. GIGGLE See, it's just not right during the week. I'm glad Brenda had her party on Saturday instead of waiting. Ohhhhhhh YUMMMMY!!!

She had a clam bake, with tons of lobsters, and mussels, and for the sea food impaired, steaks and chicken, and the best ribs I've had in a long time!!!!!

Lots of people there, some were new to me, but most I knew. It really was fun!

Thanks to Tim for cooking all that yummy stuff, and thanks to Brenda for not cooking the potatoes with the seafood, so that I could enjoy!

And let me tell you, I don't know who that tall dark stranger was, giggle, yeah, he told me his name, but sometime during the kissing, all the information in my brain just fizzled out. giggle

Not like me to be kissing on a total stranger, but who can't resist milk chocolate. Yummmy.

Ohhhh yes, it was Ivan! How could I forget a strange name like that!

Ivan the terrible, wasn't not so terrible. giggle

But, thanks again for the party, it was one of the best I've ever been too!!!!!!

HAPPY 4 th OF JULY!!!!!


Teaching Witchcraft

I've had several requests about teaching witchcraft to someone.... since I was born into it, they figure ..... who better? And I agree.

But I'm not perfect, and a lot of it is self study, finding your way, finding the path that suits you the best.

If you are being taught by someone, there are rules:

1. you MUST study for a year and a day

2. you MUST read as much as you can

3. you MUST honor your teacher, and do what they tell you too

4. and as a final test, your teacher will have you cast a circle, real time, salt pentagram and all, have you sit in the circle and initiate your power............ IF THIS HAS NOT HAPPENED, YOUR NOT A WITCH!

Sometimes a teacher will wait up to a year before asking you to do that..... it's a sort of a test to see how you handle your craft. If you can't handle it, the teacher with do the rest, and refuse to give the last test. HAVE YOU HAD THE LAST TEST?

If you don't make the year and a day, your not a witch.

If you do something that is totally disagreeable, or wrong, your teacher CAN remove your privilege to be a witch.

You may think your still one, but your not, your just a wanna be with little or no power.

Removing privilege is a Big thing, and I've done it more then once. What happens is that you my continue to practice, but everything you do, is doing absolutely NOTHING Every spell or circle you cast, is giving you bad karma and luck.

This is only done, if the teacher is sure that your not ready, or that your using witchcraft in the wrong way, or if they believe your so filled with ANGER and HATE, that your a menace to everyone.

Having past anger, and holding it forever in your heart, is NOT the wiccian way. If you can't let go of your anger, if you can't cope with the past, and move on....... you can't practice without hurting yourself time and time again!!!!

Closure is the way of the craft, anger, hate, no matter how much you were hurt, ISN'T! Move on, forget the past, forgive the person, or people, and clear your aura.

Learning a religion, does not give you the right to be a BAD person!!!!

It gives you the right to become a GOOD person! To find you way past your past and onto a wonderful future.

If this happens to someone, OK, everyone makes major mistakes, but the person doesn't go blithy on, and on, figuring that they are fine, and the teacher is an idiot.

The only way to stop this is two fold. Find the problem with your anger or bad feelings..... and LET IT GO!

I mean REALLY LET IT GO.


Say out loud, scream it to the sky...........I FORGIVE YOU, and I forgive myself for all the hate I've been holding inside, and I promise to turn my life into good, and follow the path of peace.

And anytime you allow that hate to creep into your mind, scream your forgiveness again, and again, until you are truly saying the truth in your heart and mind.


And most important..... you have to STOP making excuses for your behavor, stating it's all because of this thing, or person, or people, because no one but YOU can make you act the way you do!!!!!

And second you have to find another teacher, admit that you went wrong, and want to try again, and do so for another year and a day, THIS TIME without fucking up, and doing wrong.

And one last warning. NEVER MESS WITH YOUR TEACHER. She or he holds all you are and will be in their hands. They are the final judge of your need, willingness, and wanting to become a witch.

They are the only one allowed to judge you in this way. And they are the only one allowed to take it all away, and banish you from the craft.

You have to remember, a teacher gives up his or her power for that time that they are teaching you. They can't do spells, or anything, not even simple protection spells. So they are open to all kinds of bad luck.... just for you! So they must trust you, and love you to make such a HUGE sacrifice to teach you.

And if your incapable of getting along with your teacher, or if you don't trust them, or if you have bad opinions of them, find another. For you have to trust your teacher with all your heart and soul, without that, you can't learn or grow to become what you should be.

And if none of this helps, become a catholic, or a Christian. They won't judge you, or find you wrong.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Shore Leave

Ugh! Shore Leave is coming up, and I've been trying to get all my stuff for sale together, and ready. Yuck, HATE PACKING!!!

We are going up on Thursday this time, because the dealers room opens at 2 on Friday, and we figure that a nice extra day there to swim, and have a nice dinner, then in the morning worry about setting up the table.

Besides, I have the gift certificate from the hotel for a free night and 2 free breakfasts...... so why not use it!

I'm pretty much ready, at least with the dealers stuff, and I FINALLY got my vender's permit from MD......... took them 6 weeks, because they kept mailing it to the WRONG address.... even though I called each time and told them the CORRECT address!!!! Seems having brains is NOT a job requirement with those people!!!! But, it finally arrived and so I'm all set.

All I have left is getting my clothing ready, and since I'm going to be sitting at a table all day, I'm just bringing comfy clothing. I hope this works out, if it does, we may do this every year........ but I'm holding my opinion on that till we see.

Went crabbing again this morning, but made a boo boo, and forgot that it was 4th of July weekend.

Went early like usual, and the dock was JAMMED with Bennies!!!!! I had this tiny little space to crab..... unlike the usual way where I'm the only one on the docks.

But it's OK, I'll go again next week when it's quieter. So far I'm averaging 2 times a week. Don't do much crabbing, but I sit and meditate, and watch the ocean, and B R E A T H!!!! It's just perfect!!!!


I had someone call me today and spent a hour whining at me about her life...... so much so that I wanted to throttle her. So I'm going repeat what I said on an earlier blog for her benefit!

Do you know how witchcraft works??????????

It's a karma thing. You can ask for things for yourself, and do things for yourself, but you have to balance that with doing for others.... Or else you get fucked!
Yepper, fucked!

I do spells for my family to keep them safe, and a few for good luck to me, but the main part is doing spells for others for help, luck, health.... Even if they don't deserve it .... It's good for your Karma and allows you to do spells for yourself.

Yin and yang. A balance. When the balance is upset, say you are hurting people, or become totally selfish, or don't apologise for your anger, or your hurting someone.... Even if you think you were right, but know deep in your heart you weren't, you have to apologise for what you did, or the balance is upset, and you will pay the price.

People have bad luck and say "why me" "someone's out to get me" "it's so and so's fault" and other things. What they don't look, is deep within themselves and see that the fault is their own. They upset the balance by being greedy, or self centered, or by making excuses for what happened, or by asking too much for themselves and too little for family and friends.

By not facing the truth about their behavior, and thinking they are always right, and everyone is always wrong. There are a lot of ways you upset the balance. It can be as simple as taking care of yourself, and neglecting your loved ones. I

That upsets the balance big time, even though she thinks she's right.

It can be fixed! You have to go deep in to your self, your motivations, your lies, and see what you have done.... And face it!!!!


You don't have to go up to the person and say "I'm sorry" but you do have to do it to yourself, and then accept " what you sow you will reap" and move on. If you don't, it will build up, and you will wind up getting bit in the butt so hard......... Well, the ramifications can be totally serious!


Like the death of a loved one, major financial ruin, ill health. They all are there to get the balance back to normal. You may say, "why do I deserve this??" (though most people just say "I don't deserve this!!) Look into your heart, and it will tell you why. Then fix it!!!!!

Like I may say "I don't like this person, I hate them!" but on the outside you treat them like anyone else. Be nice, even if you don't want to. The hate is balanced by the treatment, and it's over. Doing things upsets the balance. If you lie, or cheat someone, or spread rumors about them, or created public disturbance to get attention.... All of those push your ying and yang out of whack, and you get whacked back. Some people never learn.

I've told people having problems, you need to look inside and say your sorry, or make amends, but they are so self-centered that they can't do it. They believe they are right, or they deserve to get all they can (for one reason or another) then bad luck fucks with them.... And they just can't understand why!!!!!

When bad luck hits me, I say "I deserve this" It's my fault, but it's OK because I'm sorry for what I did, and I'll face the consequences and then move on." This restores the balance, and after the bad luck leaves, good will follow.


Recently, I did something that probably hurt someone, not that they didn't deserve it.... They sure as hell did.... Not that it didn't have to be done.... Because it did. They had to learn a life lesson, they had to hear the truth..... But I was punished for it. My Karma was out of whack. But, I knew what I was doing, and to help the person, I had to hurt them.

But I wasn't punished for doing it! What I was punished for, was not the hurting.... But that I sort of enjoyed it. LOL We are all evil in someway. If I hurt the person to help them, that's one thing, but getting enjoyment out of it..... That's another. So I knew that I was going to get slapped, but it was worth it.


Unfortunately, my work was for nothing. Since the person thinks they are too perfect, and didn't do anything wrong.... So they are getting fucked big time by Karma. I tried to warn them, time and time again, to keep the balance, and when bad luck hits, to look inside and see what THEY did to cause it.... But it fell on deaf ears.

So check your KARMA. BALANCE IT! Do, face those things you did, and know you did them, and feel some sorrow that you did it. Face the feelings that you were wrong, and tell yourself that your sorry for it. And the balance will be brought back to normal, and your luck will change.


Try it, you may like it! LOL